Beached Whale

Doll Quilt Swap #4

                         

I am so excited to be part of the Doll Quilt Swap #4! I found out about it by reading Shelba's blog. Didn't think they would have room for me they did. So now I have two tiny quilts to me. I don't work in the summer so I have plenty of time to do them.

In other news, I am now down 16.5 lbs. I am really able to tell now. I am still very tired and have to be careful not to over-do things physically. I went to my husband's softball games last night and was totally beat after that. It kills my back sitting on those benches for 2 hours. So I sleep alot. And I am only getting like 300 calories a day. That seems so weird to me. Supposedly, at some point, I will be aeting more but I cannot fathom how I will get alot more calories than that. I can't eat sugar, I can't eat hardly any fat, I can't have bread or pasta. I can't have fruits or vegatables yet. What does that leave?  But that is the point. I have plenty of stored fat to survive on so little. Most of what I consume is protein so I become malnurished. And I drink alot of water.

I better go and try to do my laundry. It is quickly piling up!!

Mini Booty Swap!

 

I have signed up for Mini Booty Swap! It is a swap for miniature quilts. They have to be between 12"x12" and 20"x20". They also have tiny little blocks. I cannot wait to get my partner.

Loose Clothes!!

I have lost 15 lbs. and I put on a shirt today that was SKIN TIGHT on me before my surgery. Today it is baggy! I haven't gone down a size yet I don't think but it won't be long. I have been scared to try on previously tight clothes until now. I mean I know the scale was going down but I worried that maybe it was broken or something. It feels so good to be thinner!

Feeling Better

This surgery has been rough! It will be two weeks on Tuesday and I feel ok finally. I was in alot of pain and having serious food withdrawal at the same time.  It was hard.

So, to re-cap what I've been doing...

Tuesday the 27th I had the surgery and it went great. There were no complications and I was up and walking that evening. I went home the next day and wished that I could have stayed longer in the hospital. They had beds that sat you up and it was positioned like a recliner. At home, the most painful thing was sleeping! It was so hard and I couldn't sleep for more than 2 hours at a time. That sucks when you are trying to recover. In the meantime all I could eat was soft things that were protein. I was supposed to eat pureed meat. I did that about two times and said no more. See, I became a vegaterian a few months back and while I still eat the ocassional piece of chicken, I also have a huge problem with texture.

I am still only supposed to be eating mushy stuff but since I haven't had any problems with food (except my own personal aversions) I have added some things that I have read other people have eaten. Like I eat beans and chili, yesterday I had a baked potato (or rather a small part of one), and I ate black beans and rice the other night. All so far, so good.

I have lost about 12 lbs. to date. In another week and two days I will be able to eat solid food again and I cannot wait! It is hard not to actually chew anything for this long.

In other news, to keep myself occupied, I have been watching The L Word. It is an awesome show, however, if graphic sex scenes involving lesbians bother you, skip it. It is really just like any other soap opera, after a while I stopped thinking about the fact that it was all women. I also just watched the third season of Weeds and for those of you who know me in real life, you know I have been waiting for that to come out!! It was terrific!

More later...

Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I love you, Tomorrow...

So...tomorrow is the big day! I am having gastric bypass surgery. For more than a year I have been exploring my options, doing research, and deciding what to do. This is it. The choice is made. I guess that I could still back out but that would be rude, right? I mean the Dr. is planning on being there, the OR is reserved, an anestegiologist is waiting to knock me out, so I should show up too.

Seriously, I am pretty nervous. What if I can't do it? Maybe I am more addicted to food than I think I am. But for my future and for my kids' future, this is the option that must work. I have to be at the hospital, which is two hours and a time change away, by 11am. I actually wish it were earlier because I will be getting real hungry by the time they take me in. But I just keep thinking about all the cute clothes that I will be able to wear by next summer. Life has to be better than it is now.

I will post an update as soon as I can. Wish me luck...

Long Day Today

So we are having a garage sale tomorrow. I hate them BUT we need to get rid of a bunch of stuff. And to give the kids incentive to get rid of toys they don't play with, we said that we would use the money to but a Wii. ALL of their friends have one so they really want one too. Truth is I already bought it while I could get one but I'm not giving to them until Saturday.

By the way, to introduce my kids, L is 6. He just finished Kindergarten. He is super smart and can read really well. He is also quite handsome. I will post pictures soon. M just turned 5. She will be going to Kindergarten next year. She is also very smart but the only reason I know that is because she got super high test scores in pre-school. Because, unlike her brother who loves to let us know all that he can do, she likes to act helpless. It is very frustrating. She is also so intuative, lies with a straight face, and has more common sense than alot of adults I know. I am already dreading her teenage years! Plus, she's beautiful with brown curly hair and georgeous green eyes.

Other "people" that live at my house are my two cats and one dog. The cats are named Luke and Phoenix. Luke came from an add on freecycle. He is the greatest most laid back cat ever. Phoenix is a three-legged cat that I inherited from one of my students. She got him from one of the other professors. He had been found, was badly hurt, and had suffered abuse. His leg was set in a cast but it never healed so they had to amputate it. That doesn't stop him though. He climbs trees and gets on the roof of our house. A couple of weeks ago he managed to kill a bird! He is also alot less skittish than he used to be although he still is terrified of my husband (but most animals want nothing to do with my husband which is wierd because he is really gentle). And finally, my dog is named Scooby. He is a small mutt that showed up at my house one night and never left. That is how I have gotten most of the dogs I've had or at the pound. He is the sweetest thing and loves me unconditionally. He really makes me happy.

Okay, this post has gotten way too long. More later...

First Post!

So here I am in the blogosphere! My name is Stella and I live in New Mexico, though I am from Mississippi. I have been reading blogs for YEARS. I have thought about starting one but never have. So, here goes. The things that I will be writing about are my kids, husband, home things (I love decorating), work (I am a costume designer), photography, bipolar disorder, and my upcoming gastric bypass surgery. It is happening in 5 days! Any advice is appreciated. More later...